Monday, January 10, 2022

The BIGGEST Bonus Epilogue IN HISTORY


Over the past couple of years, I've been asked for C Crue updates & epilogues. A missed flight and a Mojito at nine in the morning started me on the path to write an epic Epilogue. It began with some scenes I'd had in my head for a while and turned into a lot more. 

Is bigger better? I think so, but I suggest you decide for yourself. 

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Friday, December 17, 2021

C Crue Afters #1 - Available NOW!

Dead Sexy & Dangerous... 

The C Crue Saga Continues.

The Rough Retribution series introduced the world to the C Crue founders, C, Anvil, and Trick. These dangerous Dominant men took the women they wanted and fought to keep them. But only two of the three women have everything they want. 

One war has ended, but the danger isn't over. Against the East Coast urban backdrop, there's more story to come, and it's where the questions that linger will finally be answered.


  • A HONEYMOON.
  • A RUNAWAY DANCER.
  • HARDCORE LOVE & DANGER.

If you're a C Crue fan, you can read along with the new storyline that's unfolding. The first installment contains 4 brand new chapters and picks up where Used left off.

✨☆҉‿✨ The Afters #1 ☆҉✨☆҉‿

C gives Zoe the perfect gift, and everything seems good between them. But is it? Zoe chooses a dangerous moment to rebel.

 

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Friday, June 4, 2021

New Release: USED: A Dark Mafia Romance




 

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CHAPTER ONE

Trick

I roll into the underground poker game in South Boston around eleven, and here’s a guy who doesn’t belong, waiting like a snake in the grass. Enzo Palermo, the thick-necked son of the late Frank Palermo gives me a onceover with narrow eyes. Everyone on the East Coast thinks I killed Frank Palermo, my ex-boss. Can’t blame them. I’ve killed a lot of people. And Frank and I were like characters in Highlander. In the end, there could be only one.

No one can prove I killed Frank, just ask the police who’ve been trying to for months. Enzo’s not here looking for proof though; he’s here looking for blood. Watching me, he stops stacking his chips. My feet take a pause to give me time to consider, but my brain catches up with itself and tells the feet to get stepping. For me, there’s no backing down. I didn’t choose this life. I was born into it, and, later, it was kill or be killed. So now I’m in it and when trouble comes knocking, I don’t just open the door. I come outside to meet it in the street.

I stroll to the table and drop casually into my spot. The Palermos want to reclaim Coynston, my hometown. But Coins belongs to C Crue now, my crue. Enzo wouldn’t come alone, so his guys are out there in the dark, and I didn’t notice them. Pauly Mangia, the oldest captain in the Palermo organization, would definitely love to put a bullet in the back of my head. Was he on my six as I passed? Sloppy, Trick.

The rest of the guys at the table I can handle with one hand balancing a drink. There’s Gibson, a stockbroker from New York, who never meets a bluff he doesn’t like. He’s here to hemorrhage money and act like a big man. There’s a Boston Irish mob guy by the name of Murphy who hates my guts. That’s mutual as fucking hell, since it’s his brother who sealed my fate. There’s Little Mo who set up the game. Mo looks nervous, as he should. And then there’s an empty chair that’s hopefully for another rich guy trying to hang with bad ones.

I drop my cash on the table, wondering if it’s a coincidence Murphy’s here. Murphy’s brother Hugh was a crony of my old man, until Hugh betrayed him. Jack Murphy looks at me like he knows I’m the reason his brother’s buried in a Boston cemetery.

There’s a dealer. No one I know and looks harmless enough. I’ll keep an eye out. The sound of shoes clicking against stairs causes my eyes to flicker that way. The tread’s wrong for a guy.

My gaze slides to the open door to witness the emergence of a girl who should know better. Laurelyn Reilly’s from my neighborhood in Coynston, and she was a good girl in school. That doesn’t stop her from looking like the devil conjured her up to bring men to their knees. Her body’s wrapped in a beige bandage dress. At first glance, she looks nude, and my cock immediately takes an interest, hardening up like poker’s not the right game to play with her. She’s got the kind of curves you couldn’t take at high speed without heading off a cliff.

Every eye in the room goes to the D cups straining the tight fabric and bouncing above it. This isn’t how she dresses. Unless a whole lot of things have changed.

At Coins High she was a teenage Sporty Spice, playing volleyball and running track. She wore black-framed glasses borrowed from Clark Kent. She usually kept her body under wraps in loose tunic shirts over jeans. The one time I saw her in a dress that suited her was when she was on the homecoming court and wore a blue strapless dress that definitely didn’t have her tits pushed up to her chin.

That homecoming dance was the night she found out her date was a well-practiced deviant. She took off on his ass, leaving the guy—me—to get stoned and mess around with the captain of the cheerleaders. Laurel and I are still not on speaking terms, because why would we be? I went my way, and she went hers, doing the conventional life thing. Which leads me to wonder who sent out the invites to this party? Laurel Reilly’s the girl who convinced me that my dick is welcome to a workout, but my heart’s only good at beating for business, family, and revenge. No one but me knows the lessons I learned from being with Laurel a decade ago, not even her.

My gaze drops to her feet and notes the double C logo that makes them Chanel. I move up her legs, which are as gorgeous as ever. Are the clothes borrowed so she’ll look the part?

She stops next to Gibson. “Could I?” She nods at him and then at the empty chair she wants him to move over to.

“Sure.” He vacates his seat so she can have it, and now she’s next to me.

What’s this about? She’s close enough for me to catch a whiff of a flowery perfume with a sexy undercurrent. Her skin’s a creamy vanilla, which matches her sweet center, one that I was keen to corrupt. I doubt she’d be so anxious to sit next to me if she knew how many times I’d fantasized about stripping her and bending her over a table to mark her pretty ass with a flogger before fucking her in front of an audience of my closest friends.

Laurel leans forward, her breasts straining to spill out of the top of her dress. I’m rooting for them. Then I try to forget about her body while I ask myself two important questions. One, who staked her? Because I doubt she can afford the fifty grand buy-in on her own. And two, why does she want to sit next to me when last I knew, she’s still pissed at me from school?

I study her profile a second, taking in the high ponytail that’s held in place by a wide dark brown barrette that blends with her hair. My inspection stops at the thin gold choker around her neck. Would she wear a collar as easily? Because she would make a very pretty pet. My fingers want to play with the clasp and stroke the bones partly hidden by her hair.

She gives Little Mo a bundle of cash and introduces herself to everyone except me. The other men shoot to their feet and lean across to shake her hand. I don’t stand or say a word. She shouldn’t be here. If she wanted a reunion with me and her intentions were good, she would’ve come to Coins.

After she stacks her chips in front of her, she turns her head and fixes her green eyes on me. I remember those eyes and the way when light shines on them they look like stained glass. Always had a tough time looking away.

She inclines her head in greeting. “Hello, Scott.”

No one calls me Scott, which, of course, she knows.

I don’t answer because I immediately want in on whatever game she’s playing. Is that a bad idea considering how the table’s stacked against me? Hell fucking yes.

The feds are breathing down my neck twenty-four/seven, and they aren’t even trying to hide it anymore, which is a very bad sign. Coins PD is always after my crue. And this card game is nothing short of a funeral march. The last thing I need is to get distracted by pretty breasts, long legs, and stained-glass eyes. But whoever sent Laurel Reilly seems to know exactly where my blind spot is and always has been. Except how could anyone?

“You know this young lady? And you don’t even say hello? Worst fucking manners,” Enzo spits out. He’s about as subtle as a goring bull.

“Why don’t you come sit by me, doll? Someone as beautiful as you shouldn’t be ignored.”

She offers him a small smile, which I immediately resent. “Thank you, but the lighting’s better over here.”

That’s bullshit. The track lights are the same on both sides of the table.

“Mo, who’s on the bar?” I ask to mess with them and splash some coolant on my brain.

Little Mo’s eyebrows draw together in surprise. No one starts drinking this early. But if everyone’s putting on a show tonight, I’ll ante up on that score too.

“Jack and Coke, Trick?”

“Yeah.”

“Anyone else?”

Everyone shakes their heads except Laurelyn.

“I wouldn’t mind a vodka martini,” she says.

All grown up and elegant enough to be playing the trophy wife or spoiled mistress apparently. Who bought her those shoes? And what does she let him do to her in exchange? My cock’s at half-mast, and I’m ready to offer her a closet full of designer shoes to play out fantasies that have gone unfulfilled for way too long.

Enzo, not to be outdone by me or a woman, takes a whiskey. For him it’s a mistake. Even three or four drinks in, I can roll this table my way. Everyone else should stay sober if they want to stay in the game. Even so, I really need to change lanes too. Murphy’s looking at my throat like he wants to cut it, and he’s a distant second to my real problem at the table. Enzo’s men outside aren’t drinking, and they’ll be there waiting when I leave.

“Martini. Here you go.” Mo’s lips draw back to show his overbite and cigarette-stained teeth, which for him is what passes for a smile. Mo’s in his forties, but he looks older.

I realize that at twenty-seven, I’m the youngest person in the room. Enzo’s got me beat by a decade at thirty-seven. Jack Murphy’s around forty-five. And Miss Reilly’s twenty-eight. Older girls were the only ones I played with in high school, by design. Older girls were more likely to be experienced enough to experiment with wilder sex, which is all I crave. Also, they were less likely to be trouble for me than a younger girl if they talked about the things I did to them. When the girl’s older than the guy and the hookup is consensual, the world sees the dynamic differently. Not that it really should. As a clean-shaven eighteen-year-old, I may have looked like an angel, but in reality, I was already fallen.

For an instant I’m reminded of my dad’s observation of me as a little kid courting trouble. “Look at you. Born on the road to hell and sticking your thumb out for a faster ride. What’s your rush, lad?”

From ages five to nine, I’d only shrugged, not sure how to answer or even what he was really asking. Now when I remember those words, I’ve got a better answer. I’m in a hurry, Dad, because I miss you.

“Jack and Coke is easier to get than Irish punch, but does it taste as good?” Laurel asks.

Glancing her way, I only cock a brow before looking back at my chips. This is strategy on my part. I want her attention, so I’m ignoring her because I know she hates that. Or at least she did.

“What’s whiskey called in Irish?” She’s determined to remind me of a night I don’t need help remembering.

“I already told you,” I murmur without making eye contact. From the corner of my eye, I watch her smile. She’s got a pretty mouth. And I’m the one who taught her how to wrap her lips around a man’s cock. That lesson was on the same night I gave her whiskey punch from my old man’s flask.

Uisce beatha,” Murphy says. “Water of life.”

Her gaze flits to him, and her smile widens. “That’s right.”

Murphy wouldn’t have a shot with her on his best day. He’s twice her age with a comb-over that makes his head look like a cue ball with some string taped on. But if Laurel plays us against each other by paying attention to him? Yeah, no, I’m not going to let him or anyone draw her focus away from me.

My phone buzzes in my pocket, and I slide it out. There’s a text from C. He’s the head of our crue. Three of us sit atop our syndicate’s unwritten org chart. Connor ‘C’ McCann, Sasha ‘Anvil’ Stroviak, and me. C wants to know if I’m back from Boston. Among other things, I was here to supervise the sale of some guns. That went off flawlessly, unlike this game is going to.

My thumb slides over the screen of my burner phone, texting back. I’m in Az.

It’s code. Az is short for Tombstone, Arizona. It means I expect a gunfight to erupt.

My phone lights in an instant. Send pictures.

That’s his way of telling me to turn on tracking, so they can find me and roll in like the cavalry. I think about the fact that the FBI’s watching me. This phone’s a burner, as is the one C’s texting from, but there’s no guarantee the feds don’t know these numbers. Even when you pay cash, the feds sometimes uncover the purchase. That’s why we text in code and why I periodically turn off the phone. If things go sideways in this basement, but I manage to get away, I want to be able to deny ever being here during the time in question.

My crue’s in Coynston, about an hour out. I don’t expect anything to go down immediately, so I respond with, When I get a minute. Coffee first.

Coffee’s short for coffee beans, which is a reference to Beantown.

No response and I don’t expect one. C and Anvil will be on the road in five minutes heading to Boston.

The burner phones change. The code phrases change. But the crue doesn’t change. All for one, and one for all. My smartest play is to draw the night out until I’ve got some backup on hand.

“We gonna play cards or what?” Enzo asks, clearly pissed at all the Ireland Forever talk that Laurel’s peddling and Murphy’s eating up.

I pick up my drink, which Mo’s just set in a cup holder.

The girl who looks like a slutty angel sips from a martini glass Mo dug up for her. She licks her lips, and Enzo’s eyes lock on her mouth. So do Murphy’s.

She may or may not know Murphy, but she knows Enzo’s the spawn of a shark and she knows my reputation, which has gone from bad to worse in the years since she left Coins. What’s a good Irish Catholic girl and IT systems specialist doing in a basement full of made men?

Could she be working for the FBI? And what wouldn’t I give to strip search her to check for a wire? Glancing at the flesh-colored fabric stretched around her body I decide I’m willing to gamble with my life and my freedom to get a look at her naked. I’m betting her pussy’s as pink as the blush she dusted on her cheeks.

Laurel

This is all wrong, and I’m in serious trouble.

The dealer keeps the cards coming, and I keep smiling and flicking chips into the pile when what I really want to do is bolt up the stairs and out of the house. Fear and dread knots my insides. Milt lied to me. If I’d known Scott Patrick was going to be here, I never would’ve come.

In school, Scott was rumored to be a wickedly dangerous boy, but I never saw that side of him. When he was around me, he was charming and so, so beautiful that it was hard to look past his face. In summer, his sandy brown hair gets streaks of blond, and year round his blue eyes change in the light and are stunners. He could’ve been a model or a YouTube star or anything that leverages breathtaking good looks. But he doesn’t like to be photographed. And yet, I doubt there’s a woman he went to school with who doesn’t have at least one quickly snapped picture of him on an old phone. His is a face that’s meant to be stared at. I still have seven old pics of him. At one time it was forty-four, but progress has been made.

He’s a man now, and there’s no doubt the rumors are true. He’s in thick with Connor McCann and Sasha Stroviak and they all defected from Frank Palermo’s criminal organization and started their own. Last year amidst a gang war, someone gunned down Palermo. There’s talk that Frank’s own daughter or his ex-mistress could’ve shot him, but how likely is that when Scott Patrick is a known sharpshooter and both his muscle-bound friends are killers, too?

In high school, I couldn’t understand why a boy as a brilliant and handsome as Scott Patrick chose to hang out with thugs. I learned later he was raised to be one of them.

Dropping the medication in his glass makes my breath so short I feel dizzy. No matter what he’s done, I hate being involved in something that will hurt him.

I take another swig of my martini, trying to work up the courage to do what has to be done. My hands threaten to shake. But I’m here and I need to do this. If he’s got nothing to hide, then there’s no harm in it. And my sister needs me to try.

Still, just the thought of trying to trick him is scary. When I was being coached, Milt made everything seem simple and reasonable. But I’m not an actress, and I’m not a criminal. How can I possibly handle myself in this company?

We play hand after hand, but none of the things I’m supposed to say will come out of my mouth. Because I’m convinced if I try at all to lead the conversation to their illegal dealings, one or all of them will immediately see right through me.

An hour in, my leg’s bouncing so fast from nerves that I realize my breasts are shaking. The man named Jack Murphy has his eyes glued to my chest. Jesus. I force myself to be still. This is a disaster.

My own eyes glance at the upturned cards on the table, but I don’t really see much. I put a hand on a stack of chips, ready to recklessly push them in. I’m playing really badly because I’m scared and I’m distracted by the first guy I ever loved.

“You sure?” Trick murmurs out of the corner of his mouth.

We lock eyes, his a deep denim blue, and my hand freezes on the stack of chips. No, I’m not sure, I think. What am I sure of is that Scott has a good idea that I don’t have what it takes to beat him, but I don’t know why he’s warning me of that. Maybe it’s another game he’s playing? He’s an expert game player from way back.

I lay down my cards. Not waiting to see how things play out, I rise and hurry to the bathroom. Once locked inside, I reach down the sausage casing that is my borrowed dress and yank out the tiny microphone. I crush it under the heel of my borrowed shoe. I’ve been outfitted in designer clothing seized by the FBI. That’s where the cash on the poker table came from too. But I can’t go forward with any more of this. I open the basement window and drop the mic outside, then close the window again, getting caught by a gust of cold air. It’s spring, but the night almost feels like winter’s back.

Exhaling, I try to breathe slowly to get my hammering heart to slow. When they lose the signal, will the FBI burst in? And if so, will all three of the gangsters at the table then come after me and my family? I almost get sick at the thought. How did I ever let myself get talked into coming here?

Because Monet’s in legal trouble. And because C Crue is doing vile things and needs to be stopped. This operation is something that I should press on with, but Scott Patrick giving me advice at the poker table stopped me. Whatever else he did in high school, he never failed to watch out for me when he thought I was in trouble.

I run some cold water, cup my hands and drink a few swallows. No more vodka. And no more Scott Patrick. I’ll take his drugged drink like I want a sip and then I’ll drop it so he can’t drink anymore. Afterward I’ll lose quickly and leave.

Returning to the table, the mood has worsened and I see that the mountain of chips in front of Trick has risen. Also, his drink’s gone. Oh, God. Did he chug it down? Now I’ll have to wait to be sure he’s okay.

Across the table Enzo Palermo sneers, his face flushed an angry red. Everyone’s losing to Trick, but no one else gets needled by him every hand.

“Luck’s just not on your side tonight, huh, Enzo?” Trick asks. “Could be because you’re not Irish. You could try rubbing Murphy’s balls for luck.”

Enzo jumps to his feet, knocking his chair back. There were supposed to be no weapons, but he pulls a small gun from somewhere and points it menacingly at Trick.

I freeze while everyone else pushes back, except Trick. He lifts my drink and takes a sip, like he’s at a table in the Bellagio. Even I want to shoot him in his beautiful face.

Enzo is not having Trick’s endless cool. He stalks around the table and puts the gun to Trick’s head.

Trick cocks a brow and smirks.

Oh, my God, why?

Enzo cracks the gun against Trick’s scalp, making me wince. Trick stays still. Clearly he’s braced himself for this attack, but why provoke it? That’s insane.

Trick’s cool gaze stays on Enzo’s face, and then Trick moves so fast I don’t register what’s happening until Enzo’s on the floor, his gun skidding away from him as he grabs his crotch. From under the table, Trick must have slammed a fist into Enzo’s balls. Jesus.

Trick stalks across the floor and has the gun in his hand while everyone else is still catching up. Mo holds out his hands, Gibson too holds up his arms in surrender. The dealer pushes his glasses up the bridge of his nose, watching the scene. Jack Murphy doesn’t move and neither do I.

On the floor, Enzo wheezes and clutches himself, spitting curses.

Then there’s a loud noise upstairs, a crashing, followed by more noise.

“What the fuck’s going on, Mo?” Enzo demands, sitting up.

Everyone else is frozen as footsteps pound down the steps. My breath catches. Connor McCann, aka C, and Sasha Stroviak, aka Anvil, appear with guns in hand.

C’s eyes go from Trick’s face where blood is trickling down from his scalp and then to Enzo on the floor.

Enzo looks at the stairs behind them, maybe looking for his muscle to storm in. No one comes.

“Mo, cash me out,” Trick says, his voice level as he pops the clip from the gun, wipes away fingerprints, and then sets it on the poker table.

“No problem.” Mo jerks into action, spilling cash into a bag and marching it over to Trick.

Enzo gets to his feet, almost foaming at the mouth with hatred. “You come busting in, McCann? Like you own the place?”

“Seems like,” C says with dead eyes. “You the cause of my boy springing a leak?”

“Seems like,” Enzo sneers, brash and unapologetic.

Blood continues to drip down the side of Trick’s head in a line just in front of his ear. He doesn’t touch it or acknowledge it as it drops onto his white dress shirt.

Murphy grins. “Should’ve tapped him lower, Palermo. He’s needed that pretty boy face rearranged for a long time. And that might even have gotten a rise out of him.”

“I’ve got what you’re looking for,” Anvil says, waving his fingers for Murphy to come at him.

No one sane would get into a fistfight with the mammoth anvil-fisted Stroviak, but at the moment I’m not sure any of these guys are sane.

Trick steps up to the table, and his hand takes my arm into a vise grip.

My head jerks up, startled.

“On your feet,” he orders.

I blink, trying to decide.

“Get up,” C barks.

I shoot to my feet, not quite steady.

Trick takes the bag of money from Mo and guides me toward the stairs. McCann goes up first, then us, then Anvil comes up them backward, gun on the room.

They move with economy and precision to a pair of SUVs. I spot at least one man lying unconscious on the ground with blood on his swollen face. My stomach twists. Milt was right. First and foremost, they’re violent criminals.

Trick opens the passenger seat of a Range Rover.

“Get in.”

I don’t hesitate. It’s definitely not the time to argue or do anything that would make them decide to leave me lying dead on the grass. Where is the FBI?

I buckle my seatbelt, not looking anywhere but straight ahead.

Trick gets in and starts the car. Rap blares from the speakers until he turns it down. He pulls away from the curb. Behind us there’s a second Range Rover with McCann and Stroviak in it.

“I don’t understand. I wasn’t—”

“Shut up,” he says softly.

I close my mouth, grinding my teeth. I don’t want to let him talk to me that way, but what choice do I have?

Get out, my mind screams. I slide one hand to the buckle of my seatbelt and the other to the door handle.

“You do that, and I will punish you for days.”

My gaze jerks to his profile. He’s breathtakingly good-looking, which is tragic since he’s so rotten on the inside.

Moving my hands away from the door handle and the seatbelt, I settle in the seat. I don’t know what Trick has in mind for me, but I know better than to make things worse by flagrantly challenging him. The FBI should be following us. I will be all right.

“Wrong direction for me. I don’t live in Coynston.”

“You live where I say you live until I’m done with you.”

My heart sinks, and my stomach clenches. He’s never directed his anger at me before, but I’ve seen flashes of it.

In high school and around the neighborhood, Trick had seemed like the least menacing of the three of them. But they all went to work for Frank Palermo’s crime syndicate as teenagers. A hard-eyed stare from Connor McCann terrified even the teachers. And Anvil Stroviak, at around six and half feet tall and bodybuilder muscular, looked like an escaped Terminator. Trick, though, was almost always turning on the charm, joking and quick to smile. It had always been hard to believe he was involved in the darker side of the Palermo business. I’d thought maybe he was just a bookkeeper or something because he was gifted at math. He didn’t bother to do homework, so he wasn’t first in his class, but he could have been. Everyone understood that. He fell asleep in calculus all the time because it was first period, but when our teacher woke him and handed him the chalk, Trick would mumble an apology for falling asleep and go to the board. He’d stare at the problem for a second and then his hand would move wickedly fast, solving anything that was put before him.

“That was a tough one,” he would say. At first I thought he meant it, but later I realized it was his way of deflecting focus from his genius. He liked our math teacher and always treated him with respect.

He mostly was that way with teachers and administrators, unless someone in authority pushed him in a way he didn’t like. I remember the day Mr. Benedict tried to belittle Trick. He’d been in a bad mood and taking it out on the class all hour. Trick leaned back in his desk and made a couple of jokes, trying to lighten the mood. Mr. Benedict wasn’t having it. He yelled at Trick to sit up straight, calling him lazy and useless. He said Trick was so stupid he could never even remember to bring a notebook.

Trick didn’t sit up straight. Instead he leaned back farther and put his hands behind his head. “Useless is being a history teacher who gets the dates of the Emancipation Proclamation wrong when we’re covering the Civil War.”

“What? What did you say?” Benedict shouted, stalking forward. “You don’t know a thing about—”

And then Trick rattled off facts and dates Mr. Benedict got wrong, citing the date of the class he’d made the mistakes.

“You’re saying random—”

“No. I’m not,” Trick said before continuing.

People’s fingers flew to look things up and then to quietly defend Trick as right. It probably only lasted a couple of minutes but it seemed like hours.

Finally Mr. Benedict screamed for Trick to get out of his class.

“You sure? Maybe you should leave and I should teach,” Trick said casually.

The room went silent. Benedict looked like he was ready to have a seizure. Then Trick got up.

“I didn’t forget to bring a notebook. I just don’t bother.”

Mr. Benedict grabbed him by the front of his shirt.

Trick broke his grasp easily, murmuring, “Be serious.” Then he walked out.

Trick was suspended and received a failing grade in history, but still maintained a C average because in classes without homework, he got As.

I stare out the window now as the trees on the side of the interstate whiz by.

“Scott?”

“No.”

“Trick,” I continue without missing a beat. “You shouldn’t do this. You should pull off the expressway and let me out.”

He doesn’t answer.

I’m silent for as long as I can be, which is only probably about five minutes. “I don’t understand what—”

“You’re the one who came looking for me. You wanted my attention. Now you have it.”

“I didn’t,” I lie.

“Be serious.” He speaks in that same dismissive, bored tone he used so effectively against our bully of a teacher all those years ago.

I swallow, my uneasiness intensifying. Why did I let myself get talked into helping Milt with this? Who do I think I am to mess around with a guy who’s reportedly killed half a dozen men?

“I just want to be let out of the car.” My voice is no more than a whisper now. “This is all a mistake. You can drop me anywhere. I’ll call for a ride.”

There are a few beats of silence. “What was it?”

“What?”

“In the drink.”

Oh, God. Did he see me spike his drink? I was smooth. He should’ve missed it.

“And who put you up to it? With Enzo, what you see is what you get. Packs an extra gun. Brings some extra muscle. Thinks he’s got it all under control because he managed to show up unexpectedly. That’s Enzo. Drugging me by getting a girl to slip something in my drink? Not Enzo. Actually I doubt even Murphy would do it in that setting. To what end? With Gibson, Mo, and the dealer there, he’s not gonna carry me out in front of witnesses to kill me elsewhere. And risk the feds and my crue getting the story? Nah. Murphy’s smarter than that. He’d lie in wait for me somewhere, kill me, and then blame it on someone else. That’s his family’s style.”

My head jerks to look at him. What’s he talking about? And why is he saying anything at all unless he’s decided I’ll never be able to pass it on?

“So tell me who sent you to set me up?”

My stomach sinks, and my voice is mostly breath. “No one.” This is more than a disaster. I have no idea what he’s planning to do. Kill me?

All he says is, “Wrong answer.”

Sunday, May 23, 2021

C Crue Returns in 6 Days!


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Zoe
The moment I see the mark on my door, I know I’m in deep trouble.
Connor McCann’s mark means pain and punishment. It means he’s coming for me, and when a man like Connor decides to teach a girl like me a lesson it’s a long, hard, shameful one.
 
Connor
She thought she could steal from me in my own backyard. Now she doesn’t want to talk.
But I know what to do with little girls who want to play games. She’s going to tell me everything I want to know, then she’s going to scream my name as I remind her who owns this town.

 

 

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Rachel
He’s an enforcer. A monster who deals out punishment and retribution. And I’ve made him very angry…

I tried to keep it secret, but he knows what I did, and he’s not a man who forgives and forgets. I’m not sure what he’ll do to me when he comes for me, but it’s going to be rough and shameful.

Anvil
She may be a virgin, but she’s far from innocent. She crossed me and now she’ll pay the price.

I’m huge. She’s tiny. Taking what I give her is going to hurt. But she’ll take it anyway, long and hard, until she screams my name. She has many lessons to learn, and the first is that she is mine.

Forever.

 


Saturday, January 16, 2021

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Chapter One



Bright light shone through the burgundy framed windows of the communal study room as nineteen-year-old Gissandre entered. A group of younger girls who’d dyed their hair in an attempt to match the pale shade of hers trailed behind her. She was relatively new to the exclusive school, but she’d made friends easily as she always did. There were only a few older, influential girls who snubbed her. That didn’t concern her very much, because she had many larger issues, like trying to remember that her nickname here wasn’t Giss as it had been her whole life. She’d promised her sister she would keep the details of her identity secret, like her name, her home planet, and, most importantly, the reasons she was currently in hiding at a secure school for wealthy young women.

A commotion caused Giss to turn and stare as Cleery and her set rushed to the windows. Cleery, who ruled the school, had a lovely, plump figure, but her too sallow complexion often had to be covered with heavy makeup because it was spotted with a rash. Giss thought she needed to give her skin a rest from the harsh products she favored, but Cleery insisted they were “nourishing.”

“There! The smoke. I told you he was out there,” Cleery said, pointing triumphantly.

Her three friends tittered, and Lyris, a skinny, freckled young woman, knelt on the sill, pressing her nose against the glass.

What’s this? Giss wondered, strolling closer to them. “Who’s out there?”

With a smug expression, Cleery said, “The one they call the golden hunter. The most magnificent specimen to set foot on this desolate planet!”

Giss froze, her stomach lurching. A magnificent looking man with golden hair? That matched the description of one of the men who might be looking for her. Her heart thumped heavily in her chest. The planet of Junistar was only sparsely populated, which was surely one of the reasons it was chosen as the current secret location for the school.

“What are you talking about?” Giss asked.

“A young man adventuring here,” Cleery said, without bothering to turn her head. “His golden hair is definitely Linzen. Though it’s wildly tangled!”

Giss’s breath caught. Was it Larsinc? When she’d last seen him his hair hadn’t been wild or tangled, but since then he’d been through an ordeal.

Junistar, a distant outpost from the more fashionable worlds, was home to people who were fairly poor. The bloodline of the Linzen people was considered so valuable that generations back, when they were enslaved and captured for breeding, they’d been bought by people on very wealthy planets, like her own home world of Orius. That was why descendants of the lost Linzens were usually highborn and well moneyed. She and her older sister Zawri had light hair, green eyes, and features that looked somewhat Linzen themselves. Although no one had ever confirmed whether there had been a Linzen in the family line, they suspected there might have been.

Giss moved to a smaller window in the room’s corner and squinted at the sky. There did seem to be smoke curling up from the frozen landscape beyond the hills. Was he out there? She chewed on her lower lip, unable to keep a flood of emotions from hitting her. Regret, lust, longing, and some fear mingled in her blood.

She told herself to settle down. It was unlikely he was here. How could he have found her? She licked the corner of her mouth where she’d bitten it. He’d said he was a Ketturan warrior, though she wasn’t sure whether she believed it. And even if his family had settled on Kettura when Larsinc was a boy as he’d claimed, that wouldn’t explain his finding Junistar. The fierce, normally dark-haired and bronze-skinned Ketturan warriors traveled all over the universe as mercenaries, but they’d never have had cause to know about this world because the planet had never been under siege. Junistar had too few resources to be a target for off-world aggressors, which meant its people—even if they could’ve afforded to hire Ketturans as protectors—wouldn’t have needed to.

The last she’d heard, Larsinc was still imprisoned in the Wilds, a prison colony on her homeworld. She swallowed against an uncomfortable lump in her throat, trying not to think about the details of what had landed him there. Or the unfortunate part she’d played.

If he’s here, he survived.

If he’s here, he’s angry. And he came for revenge.

She turned from the window and walked away. She needed to go to her room so she could try to contact Zawri. She wasn’t supposed to talk by com with anyone from home since an off-world com transmission might be intercepted by someone on Orius who would tell Urcolin, the other man who was probably looking for her.

She shuddered, slowing her stroll to her room. She should never do anything that would allow Urcolin to find her. The banker-magistrate was more than corrupt and manipulative; he was evil. Just before Zawri had sent her away to this school, she told Gissandre all the ways Urcolin had brutally beaten his slaves. Some had died. Giss’s stomach churned, threatening to empty itself at the thought. She’d known instinctively that she had to escape him at all costs. It’s why she’d been driven to do something that was as drastic and desperate as an act could be. She’d walked into the sea during a storm. She shouldn’t have survived. She still wasn’t completely sure how she had. Larsinc had claimed he’d rescued her. Maybe he had.

Of course, he was a pirate and so much of what he’d told her that night was unlikely to be true. Her steps slowed as she pictured him, tall and strong, his skin faintly golden in the low light of the cave. How many times since they’d met had she woken from dreams of him with an ache between her thighs? How many times had her mind tried to recall every detail of his face and body? So many times. Too many.

Don’t, she chided.

Let go of that disastrous night, and be grateful you get a second chance at life.


* * *


Larsinc dipped a cloth through the hole he’d cut in the frozen lake. He brought it up, exhaling hard as he used it to wash away the soap on his face and beard. He gritted his teeth and cursed as the water threatened to freeze on his face. He leaned closer to the small fire for a few moments, then turned back and shoved the cloth into the icy water again. He dragged it over his chest, growling at the frigid bite. Discipline was a way of life, but that didn’t make the needles of pain easy to take as he washed.

When he’d emerged from the Wilds prison encampment, he’d been thin, wounded, and worn to the bone in some places. In the Wilds, food had been scarce, and fighting required. Seven months was a long time to live in harsh conditions while constantly under attack. So though he’d been living rough while watching Gissandre’s school, he went frequently to the villages for meals and supplies and ate more than his fill. He’d regained his muscle, and the evidence of the wounds faded more with every week of freedom.

Linc paused, closing his eyes as he pictured the girl’s beautiful, treacherous face, the curves of her flushed cheeks, the full lips, the bright eyes. He remembered the texture of her smooth skin and silky white-blonde hair. Despite the bitter cold, his cock rose.

He dropped the rag on the ground and stroked himself, licking his chapped lips and contemplating his plans for her. During the reckoning, he would punish and enslave her until she’d paid for her betrayal.

He tipped his head back, drawing deep breaths as he gripped his cock hard, trying to recall the scent of her sea-soaked skin. It had been a light, sweet musk when his face was buried between her legs. And the tangy salt had been nectar in his mouth as he’d licked her pussy. His cock erupted as the vividness of the memory took him back to that night eight months earlier.


Saturday, June 27, 2020




Prologue


2017
Anvil

We’re under fire. I’m crouched behind a headstone in the church graveyard. We were cutting across the property when we got ambushed. We know every made guy in this town, and these guys aren’t any I’ve seen before. What’s more there’s only one syndicate in town, and we’re in it. Coynston is fifty miles from Boston, and we’ve normally got the place locked down.
I look over at C. He’s our boss’s right hand, and C seems to be the target of this attack since we’re not even on Frank today. Another guy’s body-guarding the boss. C and I were headed to get his daughter when all hell broke loose.
I lean against the headstone in the shadow of the school where C and I met. This neighborhood, one of the toughest around, turned us hard. That’s why Frank Palermo, king of the city and head of a syndicate that rakes in millions a month, took us on. Now no one picks a fight with us. Until today.
These guys came heavy, outnumbered us by three to one. They needed to. I’m six-six, two-seventy. If someone’s coming for me, he better be loaded for bear.
“Hired guns?” C says, spitting in the snow.
I nod.
“I’d like to take this last guy alive. Find out who paid them,” C says.
I nod, but I doubt it’ll be an option.
Stone chips explode off the edge of the headstone when a bullet meant for me hits it. I don’t return fire. Not yet. I’m down to my last clip, and I plan to make my last shots count.
Steam rises from where my blood drips onto the slushy ground. I’m hit in the side. I thought it was a flesh wound, but there’s a hot steady stream of blood running down my leg that says different. My head swims, and I grip the edge of the headstone.
I can’t afford to pass out. I need to end this or I’ll bleed out, just one more dead body here.
We’ve killed five shooters. I know where the last guy is. He’s within range, but behind a tree.
“Gotta move on him,” I say. “Cover me.”
Saying those words to C are the last thing I remember of the firefight.

* * *

Anvil

When I wake up I’m on my bed with gauze duct-taped over the wounds on the front and back of my right side. I’m dizzy and feel like puking. The pain is bad, like my flesh is burning from the inside out. In the distance, just above the ringing in my ears, I hear voices arguing. A girl says I have to be taken to a hospital. Our boss, Frank, says no.
I turn my head. The little raven, Frank’s teenage daughter, is being held back by C’s grip on her arm. This is off. The girl hates me. She’s put a winter chill on Frank’s place since her mother disappeared and Frank brought her here.
“Let go,” she tells C, trying to pull free.
C releases her, and she stalks over.
“See. He’s conscious. I’m calling an ambulance.”
“No,” I say.
She scowls. “Sasha,” she says. “We have to.”
It surprises me to hear my first name. It’s been a long time since anyone used it. These days, everyone calls me Anvil.
“We have to,” she repeats, her dyed blue-black hair falling over the side of her face. Made up for pictures, she’s a stunner. In the flesh, she’s crazy small, but flawless. Except for the Goth hair, she’s like one of those priceless porcelain dolls with the freakishly perfect features. I guess her extreme look does it for the masses because she definitely rocks the Instagram account the boss started.
“No hospitals,” I say because everyone knows us. The police will be summoned to the hospital immediately for a gunshot wound, especially because I’m the one who’s shot. There are dead bodies in the graveyard. And other places. I can’t go to a hospital. None of Frank’s enforcers ever can. Not even C.
“You’ll die,” she says.
“So I’ll die.”
I know I’m almost dead already. The room tilts around me, like I’m on a rollercoaster or a boat. I turn my head and vomit, and the burning pain in my stomach is so bad I break out into a sweat that drenches me.
Was it a gut shot? Feels like it. That’s as bad as it gets. I’d rather bleed out clean and fast than die from a slow, sickening infection.
I’d rather…

* * *

Rachel

Sasha Stroviak is burning with fever. I can’t get over seeing him like this. He’s massive, and normally so intimidating that people take an unconscious step back when he enters a room. As beasts go, he’s good-looking. I don’t like him, but it’s impossible not to notice him when he’s around, acting as my dad’s bodyguard or mine.
I grimace, thinking of my father’s men. There are some who’ve been in his organization for years. And then there’s his trio of street-hardened ‘young-bloods,’ C, Sasha, and Trick.
I look at Sasha’s bulk passed out on the queen-sized bed in a guest room. Right now, he’s as far from physically intimidating as any of these monsters get.
I smash up antibiotic pills I have left over from when I had a bladder infection. He’s more than twice my size, so I’m giving him a double dose of what I was supposed to take. He needs more medical care than this, but it’s the best I can do.
I glare at his friends and my hypocrite of a father whenever they come into the room or appear in the doorway. Sasha is a brute, but I wouldn’t let a wounded animal suffer this way, let alone a human being. Their codes of conduct are so messed up, and I tell them so every chance I get, trying to pressure them into taking him to a hospital. The down-low doctor his friends brought in said Sasha needs surgery. A hospital is his only chance. But they won’t take him and they’ve taken my phone away so I can’t call an ambulance either. We’re all trapped here, watching him die.
His occasional mumblings are incoherent, but on and off I can get him to drink. On and off, his gaze seems to sharpen on me and he relaxes. I don’t know why, but when it’s my face that appears over him, it seems to calm him because he says “all right” and goes limp.
“Drink this,” I keep repeating, putting the straw against his lips.
After ten minutes of coaxing, he finally sucks the medicine in. I watch it rise up and pass his lips. He grimaces. I shove my small hand over his mouth to keep him from spitting it out.
“Swallow! Sasha, swallow it.”
He does and then drifts off again.
The door opens and C, born Connor McCann, comes in. Despite his age, he rose like rocket to become my father’s right hand. He’s good-looking, smart, and ruthless. He was still a teenager when he joined my dad’s operation and he brought his closest friend, the massive, stone-faced Sasha with him. When C and Sasha first started coming to my mother’s house as my dad’s bodyguards, I never heard Sasha say anything. I didn’t think he spoke English. It was only later when I was forced to move into my father’s house that I’d catch bits of conversations and knew he could talk after all.
I learned that my father, Frank Palermo, had ordered his men to keep their distance from me. They were to protect him, and later me, with a minimum of interaction with his bastard daughter. My father is king of our city, and he has plans for me that don’t include flings with his enforcers.
My dad came up through a branch of the New York Mafia before moving to Coynston. We’re about an hour outside Boston, so pretty far from a lot of the main East Coast action I suppose, but my father still does business with the New York mob and others. Some people wonder what he’s doing here. I think I know. In New York, he wasn’t in charge. Here, he’s the big boss.
“Come out, Rachel. Trick and I will do turns sitting with him,” C says.
“Did you get it?” I demand. I sent him to lie to a doctor to get medicine for Sasha. I looked up medicines that can be used for abdominal infections and told C he’d better not come back without them. I don’t have any power in my dad’s house, but because his friend seems to sleep easier when I’m the one taking care of him, C’s indulging me. He holds up a small paper bag.
“Look at him, though, and this room,” C says. “It reeks in here. Smells like he’s already dead.” There’s pain etched on his face. I know it’s hurting them to see Sasha like this. “He’s in a lot of pain. We should do what he asked days ago and shoot him up with H.”
I glare at Connor and grab the bag from his grip. “Get the hell out. No one is coming near him with heroin or morphine. That would kill him and you know it.” I’m ragged from sleeplessness. Sasha’s always seemed invincible, from the first time I met him. I think he was nineteen, but he was already gigantic, especially compared to my schoolgirl self.
His big hand scratches the angry red area that’s developed around his wound. It’s scabbed over, but infected, and I know it hurts him badly.
I push his giant hand away. It’s not easy. Even deathly ill, his arm is strong.
I dump a couple of the pills C brought into the bottom of a cup and crush them against the side with the blade of Sasha’s knife. I pour some water over the broken pills and swish it around, dissolving them as well as I can before I drop in a new straw and put it against his lips.
“After you give him that, come out. You need sleep. Frank’ll be pissed if you faint and fall on your face and bruise it,” C says.
“Screw the goddamned Instagram,” I say, so exhausted I want to cry. I’ve kept an around-the-clock vigil, and I am in danger of falling down. But I can’t leave Sasha because I don’t trust him not to die.
Normally, I wouldn’t fight C. And normally, C wouldn’t let anyone ignore his orders either. But things are not normal. This is hard.
I don’t answer C, but I know he’s right and I do plan to lie down to try to rest for a little bit. I have to pace myself. I don’t know how long this will go on. Weaker guys would already be dead. He’s not weak. Or at least he never has been before.
“Drink this, Sasha,” I say.
He’s unconscious, but I don’t leave him alone. I nudge him and pinch his arm.
Moments pass, and his lids flutter.
“Drink, Sasha. Please.”
Through a heavy-lidded gaze, he seems to recognize me.
“Raven.”
He’s called me that once before. I’ve got a Poe obsession, and because I’ve been in a dark place, I’ve started dying my hair black. I didn’t know Sasha read Poe. I didn’t know Sasha read anything.
“Drink this,” I insist, pushing the straw past his lips.
He sucks on it. The bitter solution of watered-down pill fragments rises and enters his mouth. He swallows.
“More,” I say.
It goes on like this. I’m relentless. For close to an hour, I badger him until there is no medicine left. Then I pour Gatorade into the cup and start again.
His body is a furnace. I wipe him down with a damp soapy cloth and speak softly to him. I know he doesn’t comprehend any of what I’m telling him. He’s in a shadowy place, halfway to the grave. He probably deserves to die for all the bad things he’s done.
But I don’t care what he deserves. I whisper the same things into his ear over and over. “Fight. It’s what you do, so fight. And stay here, Sasha. Stay.”
He settles, and I rest my head on the mattress next to his.
I don’t know him well and don’t really like any of them, but he’s acted as my bodyguard a lot recently and I’m not letting him die without a fight. I can’t because I have a secret that I’ll never admit to anyone.
I’m the reason he got shot in the first place.

Saturday, February 29, 2020

PURSUED: A Dark Mafia Romance (C Crue #2)



Prologue
2017


ANVIL

We’re under fire. I’m crouched behind a headstone in the church graveyard. We were cutting across the property when we got ambushed. We know every made guy in this town, and these guys aren’t any I’ve seen before. What’s more there’s only one syndicate in town, and we’re in it. Coynston is fifty miles from Boston, and we’ve normally got the place locked down.
I look over at C. He’s our boss’s right hand, and C seems to be the target of this attack since we’re not even on Frank today. Another guy’s bodyguarding the boss. C and I were headed to get his daughter when all hell broke loose. 
I lean against the headstone in the shadow of the school where C and I met. This neighborhood, one of the toughest around, turned us hard. That’s why Frank Palermo, king of the city and head of a syndicate that rakes in millions a month, took us on. Now no one picks a fight with us. Until today. 
These guys came heavy, outnumbered us by three to one. They needed to. I’m six-six, two seventy. If someone’s coming for me, he better be loaded for bear. 
“Hired guns?” C says, spitting in the snow. 
I nod.
“I’d like to take this last guy alive. Find out who paid them,” C says.
I nod, but I doubt it’ll be an option.
Stone chips explode off the edge of the headstone when a bullet meant for me hits it. I don’t return fire. Not yet. I’m down to my last clip, and I plan to make my last shots count.
Steam rises from where my blood drips onto the slushy ground. I’m hit in the side. I thought it was a flesh wound, but there’s a hot steady stream of blood running down my leg that says different. My head swims, and I grip the edge of the headstone.
I can’t afford to pass out. I need to end this or I’ll bleed out, just one more dead body here.
We’ve killed five shooters. I know where the last guy is. He’s within range, but behind a tree.
“Gotta move on him,” I say. “Cover me.”
Saying those words to C are the last thing I remember of the firefight.

* * *

ANVIL

When I wake up I’m on my bed with gauze duct-taped over the wounds on the front and back of my right side. I’m dizzy and feel like puking. The pain is bad. Like my flesh is burning from the inside out. In the distance, just above the ringing in my ears, I hear voices arguing. A girl says I have to be taken to a hospital. Our boss, Frank, says no.
I turn my head. The little raven, Frank’s teenage daughter, is being held back by C’s grip on her arm. This is off. The girl hates me. She’s put a winter chill on Frank’s place since her mother disappeared and Frank brought her here.
“Let go,” she tells C, trying to pull free.
C releases her, and she stalks over.
“See. He’s conscious. I’m calling an ambulance.”
“No,” I say.
She scowls. “Sasha,” she says. “We have to.”
It surprises me to hear my first name. It’s been a long time since anyone used it. These days, everyone calls me Anvil. 
“We have to,” she repeats, her dyed blue-black hair falling over the side of her face. Made up for pictures, she’s a stunner. In the flesh, she’s crazy small, but flawless. Except for the goth hair, she’s like one of those priceless porcelain dolls with the freakishly perfect features. I guess her extreme look does it for the masses because she definitely rocks the Instagram account the boss started.
“No hospitals,” I say because everyone knows us. The police will be summoned to the hospital immediately for a gunshot wound, especially because I’m the one who’s shot. There are dead bodies in the graveyard. And other places. I can’t go to a hospital. None of Frank’s enforcers ever can. Not even C.
“You’ll die,” she says.
“So I’ll die.”
I’m pretty sure I’m almost dead already. The room tilts around me, like I’m on a rollercoaster or a boat. I turn my head and vomit, and the burning pain in my stomach is so bad I break out into a sweat that drenches me. 
Was it a gut shot? Feels like it. That’s as bad as it gets. I’d rather bleed out clean and fast than die from a slow, sickening infection. 
I’d rather…
* * *




RACHEL

Sasha Stroviak is burning with fever. I can’t get over seeing him like this. He’s massive, and normally so intimidating that people take an unconscious step back when he enters a room. As beasts go, he’s good-looking. I don’t like him, but it’s impossible not to notice him when he’s around, acting as my dad’s bodyguard or mine. 
I grimace, thinking of my father’s men. There are some who’ve been in his organization for years. And then there’s his trio of street-hardened ‘youngbloods,’ C, Sasha, and Trick. 
I look at Sasha’s bulk passed out on the queen-sized bed in a guest room. Right now, he’s as far from physically intimidating as any of these monsters get. 
I mash up antibiotic pills I have left over from when I had a bladder infection. He’s more than twice my size, so I’m giving him a double dose of what I was supposed to take. He needs more medical care than this, but it’s the best I can do.
I glare at his friends and my hypocrite of a father whenever they come into the room or appear in the doorway. Sasha is a brute, but I wouldn’t let a wounded animal suffer this way, let alone a human being. Their codes of conduct are so messed up, and I tell them so every chance I get, trying to pressure them into taking him to a hospital. The down-low doctor his friends brought in said Sasha needs surgery. A hospital is his only chance. But they won’t take him and they’ve taken my phone away so I can’t call an ambulance either. We’re all trapped here, watching him die.
His occasional mumblings are incoherent, but on and off I can get him to drink. On and off, his gaze seems to sharpen on me and he relaxes. I don’t know why, but when it’s my face that appears over him, it seems to calm him because he says “all right” and goes limp.
“Drink this,” I keep repeating, putting the straw against his lips.
After ten minutes of coaxing, he finally sucks the medicine in. I watch it rise up and pass his lips. He grimaces. I shove my small hand over his mouth to keep him from spitting it out.
“Swallow! Sasha, swallow it.”
He does and then drifts off again.
The door opens and C, born Connor McCann, comes in. Despite his age, he rose like rocket to become my father’s right hand. He’s good-looking, smart and ruthless. He was still a teenager when he joined my dad’s operation and he brought his closest friend, the massive, stone-faced Sasha with him. When C and Sasha first started coming to my mother’s house as my dad’s bodyguards, I never heard Sasha say anything. I didn’t think he spoke English. It was only later when I was forced to move into my father’s house that I’d catch bits of conversations and knew he could talk after all.
I learned that my father, Frank Palermo, had ordered his men to keep their distance from me. They were to protect him, and later me, with a minimum of interaction with his bastard daughter. My father is king of our city, and he has plans for me that don’t include flings with his enforcers. 
My dad came up through a branch of the New York Mafia before moving to Coynston. We’re about an hour outside Boston, so pretty far from a lot of the main East Coast action I suppose, but my father still does business with the New York mob and others. Some people wonder what he’s doing here. I think I know. In New York, he wasn’t in charge. Here, he’s the big boss.
“Come out, Rachel. Trick and I will do turns sitting with him,” C says.
“Did you get it?” I demand. I sent him to lie to a doctor to get medicine for Sasha. I looked up medicines that can be used for abdominal infections and told C he’d better not come back without them. I don’t have any power in my dad’s house, but because his friend seems to sleep easier when I’m the one taking care of him, C’s indulging me. He holds up a small paper bag.
“Look at him, though, and this room,” C says. “It reeks in here. Smells like he’s already dead.” There’s pain etched on his face. I know it’s hurting them to see Sasha like this. “He’s in a lot of pain. We should do what he asked days ago and shoot him up with H.”
I glare at Connor and grab the bag from his grip. “Get the hell out. No one is coming near him with heroin or morphine. That would kill him and you know it.” I’m ragged from sleeplessness. Sasha’s always seemed invincible, from the first time I met him. I think he was nineteen, but he was already gigantic, especially compared to my schoolgirl self.
His big hand scratches the angry red area that’s developed around his wound. It’s scabbed over, but infected, and I know it hurts him badly.
I push his giant hand away. It’s not easy. Even deathly ill, his arm is strong.
I dump a couple of the pills Connor brought into the bottom of a cup. I crush them against the side with the blade of Sasha’s knife. I pour some water over the broken pills and swish it around, dissolving them as well as I can. I drop in a new straw and put it against his lips.
“After you give him that, come out. You need sleep. Frank’ll be pissed if you faint and fall on your face and bruise it,” C says.
“Screw the goddamned instagram,” I say, so exhausted I want to cry. I’ve kept an around-the-clock-vigil and I am in danger of falling down. But I can’t leave Sasha because I don’t trust him not to die.
Normally, I wouldn’t fight C. And normally, C wouldn’t let anyone ignore his orders either. But things are not normal. This is hard.
I don’t answer C, but I know he’s right and I do plan to lie down to try to rest for a little bit. I have to pace myself. I don’t know how long this will go on. Weaker guys would already be dead. He’s not weak. Or at least he never has been before.
“Drink this, Sasha,” I say. 
He’s unconscious, but I don’t leave him alone. I nudge him and pinch his arm. 
Moments pass, and his lids flutter. 
“Drink, Sasha. Please.”
Through a heavy-lidded gaze, he seems to recognize me.
“Raven.”
He’s called me that once before. I’ve got a Poe obsession, and because I’ve been in a dark place, I’ve started dying my hair black. I didn’t know Sasha read Poe. I didn’t know Sasha read anything. 
“Drink this,” I insist, pushing the straw past his lips.
He sucks on it. The bitter solution of watered down pill fragments rises and enters his mouth. He swallows.
“More,” I say.
It goes on like this. I’m relentless. For close to an hour, I badger him until there is no medicine left. Then I pour Gatorade into the cup and start again.
His body is a furnace. I wipe him down with a damp soapy cloth and speak softly to him. I know he doesn’t comprehend any of what I’m telling him. He’s in a shadowy place, halfway to the grave. He probably deserves to die for all the bad things he’s done. 
But I don’t care what he deserves. I whisper the same things into his ear over and over. “Fight. It’s what you do, so fight. And stay here, Sasha. Stay.”
He settles, and I rest my head on the mattress next to his.
I don’t know him well and don’t really like any of them, but he’s acted as my bodyguard a lot recently and I’m not letting him die without a fight. I can’t because I have a secret that I’ll never admit to anyone. 

I’m the reason he got shot in the first place.

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